love is a battlefield.

sooo...TODAY was absolutely fabulous and rather refreshing since i was able to spend it with my amazing family. but, you know what really grinds my gears? when you go on facebook and something, or shall i say someone, can really change your mood. i was creepin' on someone, and it sucks to know you love (note it did not say loved) them, but you never even talk anymore. i hate the feeling of knowing you were so close and now it's just...gone. boys, friends, best friends. you see their lives and you read about how they just keep on struttin' down the beautiful path of life. i wonder if they miss me. i wonder is she misses me...i wonder if he misses me. i hate how one disagreement can change everything. like how she took it the wrong way, or he thought i was not going to give him a second chance. i know it's my fault. i never gave them my side of the story. i never told him i still like him, and he scares me...i never told her i'm sorry and i miss her as my best friend. the thing is, is that i never know if they feel the same way. i mean do i tell this person? do i reach out? will i make the same mistake? will my heart brake for the second time? i'll never know. i might not ever even try to say...i'm sorry.